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[Mar. 3rd, 2008|09:17 pm] |
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Wow, has it really been this long? I guess so. I have been at the new job that i mentioned in 2006 for almost two years now!! I am supervisor and it's ok. Not always easy, not always fun, and not what I always envisioned I'd be doing. What does turn out as you envision it? I have come to the recent realization that there are no "huge wake up moments in life". Explanation: There are no moments when you wake up and say oh I'm a full blooded adult now. Or oh I'm doing what I always dreamed I would be doing and it's just like i dreamed it. Or yep this exactly how I always imagined my life would be... Not to sound like woe is me, or life is depressing b/c it's not. Atleast, it's all in what we make of it..But I always thought that I would grow up and be an adult. By 24 defn. by 25 I would be a real grown up, I would feel and act like one. Only wait! No one told me what being an adult feels like. No one every told me the exact instuctions on how to act like one.. Hmph. Lol. I'm happy, these two years of living on my own have been terrific, and I would never take them back... There is just so much I have learned, learned about myself, learned about what I want for my life, learned about how I will be in the years to come! I have so many dreams, that I now fully realize are all in my grasp! Why have I thought other wise??? What has ever made me to sell myself short, short on what I want in life, and short and what I can do with my life?? I love being 24....(i am dreading 25...err) but i love bein in my 20's it's been the best part of my life so far! And you know what? I know there is soo much more to come!! I'm about to be an Aunt, can you believe it????? I'm Lord willing on my way to Denver, Colorado at the end of this month!!! I may be talking to my potential husband now..He has tons of potential, and i'm so impatient and am trying to let him call me next. I'm sure he will, but when? Guys will always be mysteries to me!! Spent all weekend with Travis in Austin.......oh my goodness. Seriously have I ever had a crazier, better, worse, random, interesting, provoking, grosser, confusinger, tiringer...weekend???? I'm afraid not! I have never been so challenged but yet so relaxed, and yet still have such a feeling of self accomplishment? NOPE! I gotta work tomorrow on a date with a guy at work... We talked about it, however, i was not all there this morning when he came in my office....To be honest I'm not even sure if what came out of my mouth were actual english words, or words in any language. I was so late, and tired, and crappy looking, and so incredibly out of it and just wanting to get my denver interview over with. Ran into him again around lunch and again, my mind was a blank slate...who knows what came out of my mouth.....lol.......I've pretty much been into this guy for 2 years..not a crush or anything but we've flirted for 2 years...and went out for drinks last weekend..would have gone to a movie on sat. but i had my own plans for my austin trip!!! Which was all I wanted and needed it to be. But now however, back to Trev from work, I get to know this guy and start hanging out only when I hope to move to Denver by the end of the month!!!! Oh well, really i think it would only be complicated.....but again what relationship is not complicated! I am not sure about this guy Chuck, that i'm talking too. He's in California, no I promise this isn't a hopeful internet romance....he's actually one of my brother's closest friends from preaching school in Denver. I am going to marry a friend of my brother's ...just so you know....lol. Daryl and Amy and Lori and ?? whoever will be the best of friends forever and we'll live close and raise our families together....But for now i'm giving daryl and amy a head start...after all they are older!! Hahahaha. I do believe my malibu and oj is starting to relax me and/or i'm getting extremly exhausted by my sleep deprivation from the weekend.......Also this is probably the longest lj entry of all time.. |
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[May. 31st, 2006|01:16 am] |
I Have a NEW Job!!!!!
I know i should be posting this in myspace.com/tyrusfatcat but i've had this longer and well i just did it this way. You can check it out, Mandy sprused is up for me. But I have a new job. I go in thurs at 9am to get all the details worked out and then i'll probably start in 2 or less weeks!!!!! Yeah!!!!
Goodnite!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! |
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[May. 23rd, 2006|12:18 am] |
Well i haven't updated this thing in forever. It seems that noone really does the live journal thing anymore b/c now we have myspace.com. Soo that's cool.
I'm in the woodlands now. I'm acting like a grownup. After reading some past journal entries I can't believe how far I've come --- and how far a slid away from God. Ladies, God is truly the best thing in my life. Through God i have the greatest peace I have ever recieved. I never recieved any peace from Ed , or Dave, or drinking, or partying ---- only more turmoil and drama. God is everything you need. I know the woman i want to become. I always have known. I just went side tracked for a long while. It has defn. helped living alone. And in a new city where i really didn't know anyone. I still don't know what kind of a career i want to pursue. But God knows. So that's enough for me, i 'll try to be patient. I want to know right now of course. But ehh, i also want a husband, or atleast a man to get to know --- but i'll continue to be patient. God want's these things for me too, and he doesnt want me to settle anymore.
Listen to me, i sound like a different person then those last entries. I am, Mandy, AManda, and Meagan have all encouraged me to change, the have challenged me to become the Godly woman i always knew I wanted to be. Daryl has been an awesome brother---he's knows everything. ANd i swear thinks none the worse of me. He has also encouraged me. He's challenged me.
I do miss everyone---Nicki--Emily-- Erica ( i still talk to you ) Meghan, Audrey---
but this was just an update, i'll try to do it again sometime.
check out --- www.myspace.com/tyrusfatcat |
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| Moving, the beginning or my grown up life |
[Jan. 8th, 2006|04:10 pm] |
Alrighty,
Well this is it, tommorow i start my job with Sigma Genosys. I will be working mon-fri 2-10:30pm (it's the second shift...) I will be working in an RNA lab, that's about all I know for right now. Other than i get payed on a weekly basis, have benefits, and the dress is buisness casual which i guess i will soon find out how buisness it is or how casual it will be. Oh yeah and the company is in the woodlands. Cool, not exactly where i dreamed of going, but it pretty much fell in my lap and i wasn't the risk taker some are and couldn't pass it up and count on the next opportunity to be bigger and better. But as it is i'm pretty hyped. things could not of worked any awesomer. All i can say is there is NO way i deserve any of this and there is defn. someone bigger than me watching out for me. Thank you God, for everything.
Soooo here is the unbelievable time line that has led me to this point.
Dec 17th----graduation---------whoop! sat.
Dec 20th---get a call from Kelly Scientific to set up an interview for me at Sigma Genoysys....this is tues
Dec 22th---interview at 9:30 at Sigma and then later afternoon get offered the position.
from here on we have x-mas, new years(which was spent in Abilene with Ed.... ehh it was a cool NY)
all of this time is spent trying to figure out what i'm going to do, i could drive everyday back and forth but not really good idea....too much gas... but adds up for a roommate for the house. Begin just looking at apartments trying to find some in my price range. Gave up on finding anything really till feb.
all of a sudden---
Jan 4th----get a call from kelly davidson, there is a girl and mother who want to see the house.
Jan 5th---- call girl, she wants the room, and fill out application for an awesome 1 bed room apt. that i loved......and plan on moving in Jan 14th
Sooo here i am packing
bedroom just about done, bathroom done, hall closet done, living room done, just need to start kitchen and finish laundry and pack for this week my first week of work in the Woodlands. I'll be staying wiht my aunt and then my fam. will come up fri. nite. and as soon as i get in we'll start loading. THe girl is goig to be moving in on that sat. too, and since i'll be in the woodlands all week. I've got to finish today.
So the only thing up in the air ---- is i don't know if the application went through or not. It should but with me you never know. and i'll sign lease sometime this week i hope and get the keys on fri. before i go to work.
my head is spinning.
i'm sooo excited, nervous, worried, ecstatic.
I love all of yall, and i'll be coming in to town every weekend till teh end of Jan. I'm working for donna at sam's just a bit longer. I would love for you to visit me. I will call you sometime, but pls. call me----honestly my head is spinning so much i may not get it on straight enough to call you , so call me.!!!! |
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[Dec. 19th, 2005|01:56 am] |
 Dear Santa...
Dear Santa,
This year I've been busy!
Last Monday I pushed ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif?v=88.8) nickimarie in the mud (-17 points). Last Wednesday I helped lolareina hide a body (-173 points). Last week I didn't flush (-1 points). In January I punched saritasb in the arm (-10 points). Last Sunday I gave nmarie607 a kidney (1000 points).
Overall, I've been nice (799 points). For Christmas I deserve an Easy-Bake Oven!
Sincerely,
loriamanda |
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| I should be sleeping |
[Dec. 19th, 2005|01:39 am] |
Wow, I am a college grad. ---------- I have a degree------- I am now Lori Amanda Parsons with a B.S.
Still at sam's club, but as an optician, atleast i'm not cashiering......and it won't be long.. I will find a job, like Daryl said, i'm in a great position. I have a decent paying job where i can just sit and wait for the right job to come to me. I can choose a job, not have to take the first one that comes my way, (which i'll probably do anyway, but oh well) atleast I can feel good.
Well I have a new car, i'm 22 no b/f or sig. other, I'm not a virgin, I drink (not alot , but i do enjoy a good nite then and again), I have my alcohol stashed where my fam. couldn't see it this weekend. I have a tattoo, which my 85 grandma saw today.....I got my first diamond this weekend. ---I think that's the highlites.
My life is not what at 15 I imagined it being. Growing up is strange, you dream about it from day one. You play pretend grown up for so long, and then one day all of a sudden you stop, and you realize --wow i'm not pretending anymore, i'm not a non-grown-up anymore, I actually grew up....your there......ahh
what do you do now? How do you become the woman that you have dreamed of becoming? I have expectations for myself they are probably a bit higher than anyone elses.......I do you accomplish them? It's a excelerating and at the same time scary feeling when you realize that you are the one that can make anything and everything and nothing happen for you --- for your life. Whatever I want to be I should do it, Where ever I want to go I can go, ...... For a child that has grown up in a passive lifestyle where decision making was avoided as much as possible, this is a frightening thought but yet very exciting....
As corny as this is getting i might as well go all the way.......
I'm at another crossroads.......now what????
exciting uhh?
I should be sleeping, i'm gonna have to get up soon to go let this dog out at the house i should be housesitting at ......and then a fun filled day at sam's!!!
"Sam's Club Optical Department, this is Lori . Would you like some Eye health information?"
myspace.com........this entry happend b/c wanted to read ed's blog there----bigedradiohead.....never found........poop head........ |
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| Boys are stupid throw rocks at them |
[Nov. 21st, 2005|10:19 pm] |
Ha ha, never thought i would be one of those girls that would say that. But i bet every single girl no matter, say that. Boys are stupid. period.
I'm done with boys, haha, no i won't be gay--we all know i could never ever even think that. But why do boys have to be dumb? I want a boy to be over right now at my house, to discuss our days, (which Ed and i already do that.....) but there is a huge problem... we're missing something which annoys the crap out of me and i'm not sure how long i'm gonna let this go on, b/c i dwell on the annoyingness of it.... and i get so frustrated. I'm sexually frustrated b/c i totally gave up bartender for ed, and now it's like why? other than the obvious, bartender was never that great, and as a girl, i try to make up for that in my head and make up for that ....but the truth was and is no, not good..... and i wasn't really happy being a late nite phone call for him.... but for a short while everything worked in a wierd balance, physically i was getting everything from bartender, and than my emotional needs were getting met every nite to with Ed. But not anymore, i cut out bartender, and there will be no meeting Ed, b/c our schedules just don't allow it......we're too freaking busy. Oh well i guess that says something ---- whatever.....i can't stand not talking about what's on my mind, we talk every day and he has no clue what i'm thinking, how frustrated i am, and it's getting worse, two days of frustration have been built up now. I just need to know, what i already know i guess..........we're probably never going to meet, so i can just quit dreaming of romantic granduer. i guess i just need this to sink in, and then maybe i'll won't be sooo dam frustrated. I just feel like cussing, this lj entry was supposed to make me focus back on english, i have a crap load to do tonite and tommorow, which i don't think i'm gonna sleep, so i thought that i could vent and then get some progress done but i'm still frustrated .........maybe i'll call erica. ok yeah she's busy, but she will call in a bit. ok, well here's what i want, maybe this will make me feel a teensy weensy bit better. I want a man, someone i can talk to , someone i'm attracted to, someone who likes me for me, and someone i can makeout with, someone who will respect me and respect himself and want to wait to have sex---, someone who loves the lord, and someone who is here now, not in stupid new mexico. Someone who there is a seeable future with,not someone who i can only imagine a sad future with, bartender has nothing in common with me, surely he sees that, or he probably only sees the sex...... go figure....he's a boy, and they are stupid, so throw rocks at all of them, aim first for their head, and then their other head........
i'm gonna end with that.......still as frustrated as i started but that's life i guess. |
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[Oct. 18th, 2005|06:57 pm] |
| What Your Sleeping Position Says |
You are calm and rational.
You are also giving and kind - a great friend.
You are easy going and trusting.
However, you are too sensible to fall for mind games. |
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[Oct. 11th, 2005|10:32 pm] |
It's only 10:30pm and i feel like my day should be ending, i had stuff i should do tonite but don't really want to and the problem is i don't really have to do it tonite, but it would be a good idea to do it. This is who i am, i'm coming to realize, i, Lori Amanda Parsons, am a procrastinator. (the first step is admitting right?)
My life has taken the most unbelievable turn ever, i would - could of never predicted what, or who i am or have become these past couple of years. This isn't who i am right? DO the decisions we make really tell us who we are? Are we our decisions? Sometimes, ( I do this not sure if anyone else does) I make decisions or i make choices that i never really wanted to make to begin with, but somehow when i get to where a decision needs to me made, i never really chose what i truly wanted but what needed to be decided. I know that didn't make sense but just try to follow. Someone asked me if I'm starting to question who i am, someone who happens to know every decision i have made lately... However she doesn't know any of the good ones (the good decisions..) b/c i never stick to those. ... But so she asked me if i question who i am, and i told her no... i know who i am..... i thought i did... but do i? i know who i want to be, and who i should be, but i don't know actually who i am..... i know who i was.... heck i even know eventually who i'll be.... (maybe.....) But who am I ?
Do my decisions make who I am? I really pray no, but maybe that's what i need to face, that the decisions, however bad they may be are dictating who I am... If i don't like it maybe i should be making different choices....
hmmmm
So, back to the beginning......i am procrastinating... i need a buisness suit, a porfolio, and a completed perfectinized resume........all by oct. 26....... I gotta get cracking.........
Please pray i'll find a job somewhere out of this town... i really feel i need to go... i think starting afresh will really really really be totally awesome!!! I'm kind of counting on it....no more friends to party with, no more boys to get drama with........until of course i find all new ones.... but a new place, a new job, i really really want it!!!
g'nite
love ya em and nicola.....miss both of you
oh
Halloween party my house sun. oct. 30th
plz come!!!
it will be a blast from the past.
Whaaaaahahahahaha |
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| wierd sat. |
[Sep. 4th, 2005|12:14 am] |
Ok, soo it's saturday nite and it's only midnite and i think i'm about to crash. Did have plans with Nicki, actually we had plans to make plans, just didn't happen. We talked about doing stuff, she kinda wanted to see a movie, i wanted to gou out and get plastered!!! haha, j/k, i jus twanted to go out. But was not to happen. So now i'm at home, alone, well kinda, my roomie is here with her pals from ACU land, they're cool, but i didn't feel like socializing with them, since i don't have too and they're not there to socialize with me, just amanda...soo i'm in my room. Just thinking of what i could do tonight, that internet guy, Ruffin wanted me to come over sooo bad tonight to watch the game with him, and to drink a few beers, and i guess it also doesn't help that i told him we could make out the second time we got together.....my bad, i don't want to , not with him, actually i only want to makeout wtih one, well now two ppl, boys of course, and one is too far away, and the other, well it's not like that, i can't just call him on a complete whim, i have to wait, kinda play this game........i guess i should go to blarney's...maybe this next week i will. Probably not, So if i were to analyze this , which i wasn't until Alex mentioned "2 weeks" that's along time....it's not really but why would someone say yeah call me in a couple of weeks, we'll do it again......hmph... so i'm not analyzing that, b/c he meant yeah, call me in a couple of weeks, we'll do it again.....haha....anyway. So i'm here at home, with my cats kinda tired, my eyes are getting heavier and heavier
Ok well it's im time again, my pal just messaged me, what more is there for me to do...........i wonder...
I truly am addicted, my parents think i have a drinking problem...i think i have an internet problem |
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